i’ve decided to start writing some thoughts and reflections about Gavin, myself and our time together.

it amazes me to think of how gavin used to be two cells, so small he couldn’t be seen, and how he now is the size of my chest, with all these identifiable parts…nose, ears, eyes, some functioning internal organs. how he grew all those from next to nothing…i just can’t get my head around it. and they all turned out right too, with no extra nose instead of a knee.

some friends were visiting the other day and they say that gavin looks like “a combination” of chris and i. i honestly can’t imagine he’d look any other way since he is, in fact, a combination of us. it seems that people choose to see which parent the baby looks like, perhaps according to which parent they are closer to, or spend more time with. i can’t wait to see what gavin looks like when he is ten years old, twenty years… i imagine he’ll look the same to me, like my parents friends who hadn’t seen me since I was three , who said “You look exactly the same.” when they saw me twenty two years later.