Gavin is almost a year old now. It seems like both yesterday and forever ago when Chris and I found out we were pregnant (we grinned nervously at eachother), and when Gavin was born. This long after the birth, I still think about it often. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. More painful than cramps that made me pass out in high school. More like a charlie horse all up and down my spine for hours and hours. I’d been hoping so much for a